I finally get calmed down and back at it. My tummy is telling me that it's hungry, but I feel like I'm getting stuff done and don't wanna interrupt my roll. So I hold off. Now where was I?
The desk...
I look at the desk and feel the new but familiar sensation coming over me of being overwhelmed. Just leave it. And go eat. I've learned that I must be well hydrated and fed and enough sleep to be able to work thru those feelings. So, I head for the kitchen. Yuck! Before I can make lunch, I need to wipe down the counters. I go to the sink, and Yuck! I need to get those dirty soakers out of there before I can get my wash clothe wet. I decide to do at least a small dish load, but need some gloves. As I hunt for the gloves my stomach starts growling in earnest. Now, instead of the nutrious meal that I was planning, I grab a junky chip and dip snack. It tides me over for a while, so skip the actual meal. I now look around and decide that I really need to use this time for packing and need to stop allowing myself to get distracked. As I walk by the couch, I get this keep flash of exhaustion. I jump ahead to what this evenings activities will be and decide to get in a quick nap. That lasts about an hour plus. Cause I'm tired but the neighbors are noisy. When I do get up I have about 15 minutes, til I need to leave to pick up children, so I'll just cuddle with my littlest. I get my guys and think I should go back in to pack some more. But on my way in I notice the sticker weeds in the front flower bed and the sun is out and I really don't wanna pack. And the weeds will need to be dealt with at some point and my hubby is mowing. So, I go to get the gloves and bucket. When I pass/trip the water hose I stop to wind it back up. I actually remember to continue to the garage for gloves but no bucket in sight. I start with the weeds but quickly realize I must find a bucket. Several wasted minutes of searching and I find one and get back to it. Within 10 weeds I'm interrupted with "Mom, the neighbors are here." They are here to pay for the bed, but we still chat about everything else for 1/2 hour or so. By then hubby is done and resting on the lawn chair watching birds. He's rarely awake and sitting at the same time, so I snatch this opportunity to sit with him. But,
the mosquitoes are out!
So, I go back inside. I check the clock and figure that I should feed my family or at least deligate it. Within a hour their fed and the clock says an hour past their bed times and sit down and rest for the eve for me. As I start to plan for tomorrow I first think back over the day see what I got accomplished. One load of laundry is washed, 3-4 garments were folded, bed covers are pulled back, small pile of stuff is on desk chair (now the floor, cause hubby wanted to sit there), realized the kitchen was in a tornados path, a pile of weeds on front walkway and a small nap.
WHAT?!?
I busted my rear all day. This is it? What happened to the highly motivated, compulsively organized, and obsessive packing machine that I used to be?
Have ya ever had a day like this? Well they have a name for it now.
You are officially diagnosed with:
CAADD or AAADD
CHILDREN ACTIVATED ATTENTION DEFICIT DISORDER
or for those of you without children to blame it on...
AGE-ACTIVATED ATTENTION DEFICIT DISORDER
Welcome to my world!